This is the last journal in 2017. Not that it means anything though. As always, I didn't know what to write. It's been quite a journey from the first time I create this site. I am still stumbling upon my daily struggle with self-hatred.

I didn't know why I'm still doing this, honestly. 

I chose to and not to do a lot of things. For better or worse, it changed me. I don't know. But, the world runs faster everyday. I've been running this way for as long as I remember. But now, I just want to stop and take another look in the mirror.

Who is this person I'm looking at right now? And is that a happiness or an insanity I see in his smile?