It's been 2 weeks since the last time I was here. And months since I write daily. I was having too much self-crises in this period of time to write anything.

Generally, I can't say that I am proud with what I've been doing this year. Things got messy with everything. I got cold for the first time in years last month because I didn't eat properly. The doctor said I should drink more water, which is strange because I always drink coffee.

Just this week, I stayed up late twice to meet deadlines. Trust me, this is not me bragging about being busy. I prefer sleeping. This is most probably because I couldn't manage my time well. I got distracted easily by instant pleasures such as watching Youtube videos.

Someone said that being wise meaning changing yourself, instead of changing the world. And someone else said that one way to solve your own problem is by helping someone else's. 

It's never too late to start over. And I will try it once again.

No matter what, the scars will follow

As a ghost of a failure

Or a lesson of humility

Try not to torture yourself with the former