Nobody is free from the burden of expectations. To collect as few expectations as possible is probably the way to live. I'm not really the type of person that commands respect or garners good will from people naturally. So I stopped trying so hard a while ago.

I'm very good at disappointing people, yet very bad at forgiving myself. It's probably best for everyone if I run off to the mountain and become a hermit or something. And that's what I genuinely want to do now.

I want to draw again. Write silly stories again. Read my books. Tend to my garden.

Yes, it's best this way.