I honestly don't know what to write today. I know I should work on something much important right now, but here I am writing this. I don't think I can talk about college or whatever without getting depressed, so I'm gonna come up with something else.

Aand, I got nothing. I am always all about studying and stuff. Ever since elementary school until now. It's all always about how to get the best grade and get liked by everyone. It's a really sad life. But after spending more than 10 years being like this, it's just stuck deeply inside me and the idea of throwing it away is just impossible at this point. I tried to change. God knows I tried. But I was so fragile every time. I see the darker side of the coin every time. I am my own problem.